I find myself in the muck far too often. I often feel like such a failure. I ask myself daily if I am an idiot to think I can minister to anyone when I am by no means an example. I mean just when I think I am finally finding some victory, the rug is yanked out from under me and I am thrown into the middle of a battle I was not prepared for.
I am quite clumsy spiritually speaking and fail daily…
I try to find comfort in the Word…
For a righteous man falls seven times and rises again… Proverbs 24:16a
Only to hear the voice in my head reminding me of…
- Last night’s rude comment to my husband just after writing a devotional for wives…“oh what a hypocrite you are”, I hear ringing in my ears…
- And how I didn’t follow through on a commitment last week…
- Or reminding me how many times I failed over the past week…
Again, I search the Word for comfort…
But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. – 1 John 1:9
So, I bring my failures before the King and He is so kind to me and forgives me. So, I find a moment of peace…until the raging thoughts in my head overtake me again…
Do you ever hear them?
Do you ever hear how you are unworthy, useless, a hypocrite, and not really usable?
I do.
And again, I MUST search my Father’s Word for my comfort…
For it is by free grace that you are saved (delivered from judgment and made partakers of Christ’s salvation) through your faith. And this salvation is not of yourselves, it came not through your own striving, but it is the gift of God; Not because of works, lest any man should boast. – Ephesians 2:8-9
Oh, Daddy, thank YOU for Your unmerited grace on me! THANK YOU! I am SO unworthy! Forgive me for my failings and inadequacies. Thank YOU for loving me and making use of this crippled vessel. I long to see Your loving face and to no longer be tormented by my own failures. I love You! If you can use anything, Lord, USE ME!
Find more Encouragement…
- Proverbs 3:5-6
- Philippians 4:13
- Jeremiah 31:13
- Matthew 11:28-30
- Isaiah 40:31
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PRAISE THE LORD!!! oh i desperatley NEEDED this devotion today!!!! God spoke right to me!! sometimes i feel like how can i possibly be on my way to heaven when im such a failure and constantly fail?? how many times can God forgive me for the same sin?? thank you LORD for your longsuffering and Grace!
Thank you Jesus for dying on the cross so I don’t have to be perfect, all you want from me is to love You. That I am happy to do!
Great post. ;)
Wow, so I’m not alone! Thank God for grace!
Thank you for this!! it is refreshing to see others struggle with the same issues daily, The Wannabe Mummy is right, thank God for grace!
So glad that you wrote this! To share something that no one wants to talk about…but that we all feel. Thanks so much ?