I was trying to pin point what I have been feeling lately, and then I came upon a Scripture that defined my feelings so clearly. I am always amazed at how I find peace, hope and guidance in God’s Word. I am so happy that I do not have to be without the Lord. I am so blessed to be one of His daughters! :)
I find much comfort in the Psalms. David poured his heart out to God passage after passage. He hid nothing from God and had so much inner pain, doubts, turmoil and fears. He seemed to always be just out of reach of what he sought after…
David was much like me…
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those whose spirits are crushed. The righteous person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time. – Psalm 34:18-19 (NLT)
Crushed is what my spirit is. After looking up Hebrew and dictionary meanings for crushed in this text, and finding; break, break in pieces, crush, bruise, destroy, contrite, smite, oppress, beat to pieces–I am certain “crushed” is the word I have been searching for.
Life has beaten me down, ladies. I used to be happier, laugh more, see more and feel more. I feel so numb these days.
I feel so…
Crushed by life and the pain it brings. Oh, how my soul longs to be uplifted and joy-filled. I often wonder why joy eludes me. I have been told that there is joy in me by a few leaders in my life. Yet, I have yet to unleash this “joy” they speak of. It seems so far out of my reach…
In its place is weariness, anger and sadness. It seems like the burdens of life are taking their toll–and I am losing the battle.
I hope you can handle my frankness. Just because I have a “Christian” Mom website does not mean I have it all together or have “arrived”. I wonder how many “leaders” and professed Christians — if they were being completely honest can relate to where I am at?
If you are one who is in the same desolate place, know that you are not alone…David was there long before we were…
Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me. Cast me not away from Your presence and take not Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit. – Psalms 51:10-12 (amplified)
That is my prayer…
Daddy God, Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me. Cast me not away from Your presence and take not Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit. In Jesus Mighty Name, Amen.
Look up and study the following passages.
- Nehemiah 8:10
- Isaiah 43:13
- Daniel 3:17-18
- Psalm 91:2-3
- Psalm 32:7
- 2 Samuel 22:2
Memorize: May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope. – Romans 15:12-14
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